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Learning to slow down

Life, The Smith ProjectAndrea Smith

I know 2016 was difficult for a lot of people and for some it wasn't so much. But to all I lift up my glass of water and say cheers to 2017 and good bye 2016 :-) 

At first I would of been one of those people that said 2016 was the worse, and yes 2016 was not the greatest year for me, but now looking back, the Lord was in every single moment, in every single breath, in every single thing that I did or did not do. He was everywhere, and for most of last year I chose not to believe in that. I chose to lean on my own strength, to put myself above my family, my friends, and God. You know what happened? I crashed. Hard. I had a seizure, in October, my weight and eating habits were terrible, my emotional state was in disarray, and I was very seriously going to walk away from my marriage, my family, my business, my life, and from the Lord. So yes, last year was a very hard year for me on every single level.

But you know what, after I had my seizure, I actually began to see things clearly. I thought at first and maybe it's still true that I had the seizure because of the devil, because of the constant warfare over my life, and that might have played a part in it, but when I looked at the bigger picture, and when the doctor told me I couldn't drive for six months, I had the biggest weight lift off of me. I was glad I couldn't drive! I was glad that I had to stay home with my son and look him in the face and be his mom! It was like the Lord was telling me STOP! Just stop Andrea! You are literally killing yourself and you are allowing the enemy the drive that knife a little deeper, you are allowing him to push you a little harder.

I saw a picture of myself in that moment me at the fork in the road. Which path will you choose I heard, and what I saw was path that looked nice but at the very end it changed into death. Then I saw the other path that didn't look to awesome either lol, it was narrow and baron, but somehow I knew deep in my heart that fruit would come forth if I chose that path. I took a deep breath, reached out my hand to no one at the time, but then looked up and there He was, waiting and smiling at me, and I chose the road less traveled. 

So the past couple of months the Lord has taught me a few things. To slow the heck down, take a deep breath, and be in the moment; yet look toward the future for He has good things in store for me then I can ever imagine. I just need to trust that He knows what He's doing. That I am not missing anything, everything in His timing is the best timing. 

Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice

Book ReviewsAndrea SmithComment

Pride and Prejudice. One of the most iconic stories ever told by Jane Austen. I've been wanting to read the classics since, like forever, but since getting married having a baby blah blah blah life has been consuming. My good friend recommended Audible which is a website dedicated to audiobooks. They have thousands of books available, and amazing performers reading the books. This is my second audio book and I really enjoyed it. At first it took me a while to get into the story, but I think it's because I listened to Jane Eyre first, and that story is a dark, redemptive book. So going from that to a book to a very light hearted novel, threw me off a little. But eventually I got into the story and was swept away by all the crazy and beautifully written characters. I was not disappointed with this book, and I highly recommend it especially for the times we are in today.

Charlotte Brontes' Jane Eyre

Book ReviewsAndrea SmithComment

A story of betrayal, anger, love, heartbreak and redemption. Jane Eyre is a must read classic. Thandie Newton gives a brilliant performance in the audio book as she captures you with her narration of this story. This was my first audiobook I signed up for and I couldn't wait until it was my son's nap time. This story is so good, I cried, smiled and gripped the couch at every turn of this book. The movie has nothing on this book. If you are considering audio books do it! You will not be disappointed.

A baby changes everything

Motherhood, LifeAndrea SmithComment

I'll be honest, this quote was a little hard for me to swallow because I DID NOT feel this way when I became a parent. Between the postpardum depression, and going back to work full-time, my life had been a mess and I hated being a parent. It wasn't until we made major life changes; me transitioning to a SAHM and going to see counseling for the depression has this quote making me smile. Everyday now, I fall more and more in love with my little son. I honestly thought I would never get to this point, but I finally feel for the first time in over a year, that being a parent isn't so bad. I can actually say that I love my life and my relationship with Liam grows each and everyday more beautiful than I could ever imagine.

Joy

Life, Family, Motherhood, Marriage, Pregnancy, QuotesAndrea SmithComment

This quote is so hard for me to hear. I literally just sat here and re-read this about 20 minutes. 

I have been in a hard, long season of depression and joylessness. I don't know if that's a word but I just invented it, so whatever, it's my blog so my rules :-) Anyways, simple put, joy is a choice. Just like most emotions in life. I wrote on our blackboard this phrase,"Today is a good day, for a good day." So every time I get upset or want to yell at little Liam (my son) I see that big annoying board and it reminds me that I have control over my emotions, and I get to choose if we are going to have a good day or not. I am the homemaker and I am the one setting the tone or atmosphere in our home, so what will I choose today? 

So next time you're frustrated that the house is a mess and you didn't get anything on your unrealistic check list done, just remember that it's really not the end of the world. You get to be the person that affects your home, that little face looking at you, and the people who surround you. Joy is a choice, so what will be your choice today?