The Smith Project

Learning to slow down

Life, The Smith ProjectAndrea Smith

I know 2016 was difficult for a lot of people and for some it wasn't so much. But to all I lift up my glass of water and say cheers to 2017 and good bye 2016 :-) 

At first I would of been one of those people that said 2016 was the worse, and yes 2016 was not the greatest year for me, but now looking back, the Lord was in every single moment, in every single breath, in every single thing that I did or did not do. He was everywhere, and for most of last year I chose not to believe in that. I chose to lean on my own strength, to put myself above my family, my friends, and God. You know what happened? I crashed. Hard. I had a seizure, in October, my weight and eating habits were terrible, my emotional state was in disarray, and I was very seriously going to walk away from my marriage, my family, my business, my life, and from the Lord. So yes, last year was a very hard year for me on every single level.

But you know what, after I had my seizure, I actually began to see things clearly. I thought at first and maybe it's still true that I had the seizure because of the devil, because of the constant warfare over my life, and that might have played a part in it, but when I looked at the bigger picture, and when the doctor told me I couldn't drive for six months, I had the biggest weight lift off of me. I was glad I couldn't drive! I was glad that I had to stay home with my son and look him in the face and be his mom! It was like the Lord was telling me STOP! Just stop Andrea! You are literally killing yourself and you are allowing the enemy the drive that knife a little deeper, you are allowing him to push you a little harder.

I saw a picture of myself in that moment me at the fork in the road. Which path will you choose I heard, and what I saw was path that looked nice but at the very end it changed into death. Then I saw the other path that didn't look to awesome either lol, it was narrow and baron, but somehow I knew deep in my heart that fruit would come forth if I chose that path. I took a deep breath, reached out my hand to no one at the time, but then looked up and there He was, waiting and smiling at me, and I chose the road less traveled. 

So the past couple of months the Lord has taught me a few things. To slow the heck down, take a deep breath, and be in the moment; yet look toward the future for He has good things in store for me then I can ever imagine. I just need to trust that He knows what He's doing. That I am not missing anything, everything in His timing is the best timing.